"Human" - Monica McMeans

Writing saves. Writing heals. Writing is the testimony, the proof, of a great life. The writer saves, heals, and proves that the best days are ahead and the worst are behind.

And sometimes, "the writer" is prophetic, writing about their future in real time.

i just want to be human

i just want to be unapologetically human for a while.

i want to feel what it’s like to just feel—

not explain, not justify, not soften the edges.

i don’t want to be logical.

i don’t want to make sense of things

or force meaning where there is none.

i want to flow freely.

to let emotions come without fear

of embarrassment or consequence.

i want to react in the moment—

not plan it, not rethink it,

not tell myself to be calm or rational.

if i need to scream,

let me scream.

if i feel like cursing,

let it come out raw and unedited.

i don’t want pep talks with myself

about how to be better,

how to be softer,

how to be “emotionally intelligent.”

i don’t want to overanalyze.

i don’t want to pause and assess.

i don’t want to coach myself through being alive.

i am not a robot.

i am human.

and i’m tired of feeling like a prisoner

in my own mind—

talking myself out of feeling

just so i can appear composed.

i don’t want to appear anything.

i just want to be.

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